well its been a long time. i have to say i am becoming very discouraged in my work. i began to feel the same way when i was doing sex ed. i feel like poeple dont really want to chcnge their bad habits if it entails work. my goal is not to change the world, its to change a life. we have one go around here and i feel like we should embrace it to the fullest- and that means mentally physically, and sexually. you CANNOT get even close to your potential in any of these areas without your health. my mom reminded me the other day of one of my favorite guys from grad school- maslow- and hos famous heiarchy of needs. the basic premise is that if your primal needs arent met, like food, health, and shelter, you will not be able to climb the heiarchy. upper levels like self-esteem, loving and belonging, and finally, self-actualiztion, cannot be achieved. i have been fat and thin, an unhealthy smoker, and a healthy vegetarian at a healthy weight. and i can tell you life is so ridiculously much better when you feel good inside and you feel good about your outsides too. i mean lets not ignore the fact that we all want to look good. life just somehow is more enjoyable when you feel and look your best. you can get up in the morning and throw anything on and feel ok- as opposed to an hour in front of the mirror trying to find something you'll not be too embarassed in. ive been there. its not fun. at all. everyones looking for that magic pill or answer to get to that place of feeling and looking their best. the thing is that doesnt exist. it takes hard work- mentally and physically to get there. and its so much better when you do knowing you did it on your own. it really is- so heres the answer- actually there is magic- i think its magic- its so overlooked anymore- the simplicity of the answer- its exercise your body and feed it well. no jenny craig or weight watchers needed. no diet pills or zumba. just MOVE and feed your body like the temple that it is. even my 90 year old grandpa has fallen for the gimic- i mean at 90? geez- thats how powerful these big advertisers have become. he wont eat anything but his pre-packaged frozen processed jenny craig food. really? really? even at 90 they can get into your head and make you believe their food is best? it really infuriates me! i had him over the other day and he refused my fresh and organic grapes and cheese b/c he had to get home for his frozen processed lunch and how good he's being on his diet. so ridiclous i dont even know where to start! you should NEVER EVER pass up fresh and esp. organic fruits and veggies! NEVER! that is the basis for health- and to be so brainwashed to think his diet food is better is just beyond. so i feel like i am fighting a losing battle- and mostly on my own. sure there are some that have tried to brake through- my beloved dr.weil and dr.oz i love too. i just wish more people would blindly follow people like them as opposed to weight watchers, jenny craig, and all the diet pill commercials. so the question ive been asking myself lately is how can i help? how can i make a difference? how can i penetrate this bubble of big business and taking advantage of people? i dont know the answer yet. i just keep plugging along slowly and hope that even just one person will listen and feel the joy of good health and well-being.